The New Normal

I had no idea that bringing home a second baby would be so world rocking. I loved Lawson and the joy that she brought to our lives, but man it took a lot of time to adjust to having two kids.

I think that I was so miserable toward the end of my pregnancy and just thought once Lawson was here life would be so much easier, however, I wasn't expecting to come home at 50%. It just took me a while to really figure out how to manage two kids. Not to mention the second night that we were home Oak came down with a 104 fever and about a week after we were home Brian got strep throat. It was really hard for me to figure out how to care for him and her! I remember waking up each morning with such extreme anxiety, so fearful of how the day was going to go. I just wanted to make sure that Oak felt loved and cared for and wanted to spend sweet bonding time with Lawson too. I wasn't sure how to make everyone feel loved.

After those first few weeks though we began to get into a routine and I started to feel so much better and get my energy back. The anxiety eventually subsided and we were able to live what I called a new normal. Life where I was praying a ton and relying on Christ to really help me to be a good mother to both of my kids and realizing that I was doing the best with what I had and my new goal was just to make it through the day. Some days look prettier than others, but sometimes shockingly we do make it through each one.

Again, I felt covered in prayer and just knew that God was taking care of us. First, he gave us the sweetest baby in the world. Lawson hardly ever cried and was just so sweet and snuggly. She had a really hard time sleeping at night, but because she was so sweet it just didn't matter. He also made Oak adjust really well to having a little sister. I mean, he did get to watch a ton of tv (and still does) so he probably thought that getting a baby sister was the best thing that could have ever have happened to him. Being a big brother seemed very naturally to him. He didn't necessarily love her and pay much attention to her, but he didn't ever do anything to her or throw fits or anything like that.

I really don't think I could have made it through those first few weeks without all of our friends and family who loved us so well. We had people bring us meals, fill our pantry with groceries, do our laundry and love and care for Oak while we adjusted and I got to feeling better.

We just felt so loved in those first few weeks and are so thankful for the amazing friendships in our life!